Unsure.

As I have mentioned, I have THE best job in the world. Hot Dog on a Stick is unlike any company ever before, and I doubt any company to come. Today at big girl job, I got in trouble :( Very rarely do I get in trouble at Hot Dog and when I do, I'm usually more upset than my boss is. I have anxiety like nobody's (Sorry if I offend my English major friends. I've never known if it's nobodies or nobody's..English is hard!)business. So when boss lady says "do you have a minute? I need to talk to you?" my heart goes tachycardia and my adrenaline is pumping. The details aren't important, but I messed up. It's weird, but in life we're supposed to learn things (it's like we NEVER get out of school ugh!!). Well, today I learned two. How lucky I really am, and to be sure of my own intuition and what I know:)

That whole scare this morning made me realize that I need to grow up. I've had a job since I was 16, but never a "professional" one. My co-workers are very smart people and have been doing what they do for a long time. I'm not sure how one goes about growing up or learning to be professional, but hopefully my job will teach me. As I become older, I better become wiser too though, or I'm screwed!!

Next, I realized how lucky I am to work at Hot Dog on a Stick. I always joke that there should be "hotdoggers" in every profession; police officers, doctors, lawyers, plumbers, accountants, all of that. Only because the way they run their business and treat their employees would be beneficial to all of the other professions in the world too. Plus I LOVE my management and want them to be my boss' forever! Even when I'm a doctor and they won't have a clue about how to manage me haha.

God is great! I'm sure he never gets sick of hearing it, which is good because I never get sick of saying it, or realizing it for that matter. God understands our weaknesses and our strengths. He also puts people in our lives to make them better. I have been blessed with many of these people. This paragraph will focus on one, Mrs. Krystin Elder. I'm out of school now and we're neighbors so Krystin it is. Krystin was my choir teacher for 7th, 8th, and 9th grade. She quickly became more than that though. She was one of my favorite teachers and I loooved to perform in that class. I began babysitting her kids and helping out her family. She writes (beautiful) letters of recommendation for me, and now we text often:) She is one of the nicest people I've ever met and she's also DANG good at playing piano. This semester I signed up for "beginning piano" because I have ALWAYS wanted to learn how to play the piano and I just thought it'd be great and fun and awesome. Wrong. It's hard, fast-paced, and mostly stressful. I am more worried about passing piano than passing pathophysiology. Silly? Yes. Practical? Probably. I spend more time practicing piano/worrying about piano then I even think about doing for patho. The medical field makes sense to me and interests me. I am no musician... or artist, as I found out freshmore (freshman/sophomore) year. And I digress..Well my piano teacher is nothing like my junior high choir teacher. She is high on criticism, and low on complements. I am beyond terrified to ask her a question, let alone get some extra help from her. Good thing God is good to me and blessed me with Krystin in my life:) When I began struggling I instantly thought I should call Krystin for help. So I did. I had a quick and dirty piano lesson today. From that lesson however, I got much more than more knowledge about the cadence or sharps and flats. I got a self confidence boost and a life lesson. Which leads me to my third point.

While I was playing piano today I began doubting myself about the keys I was playing. This is because my teacher expects perfection. I do not want to play it wrong. Krysin kept reminding me "to believe in yourself" because I was right the first time. She gave me many encouraging words and I feel SO much better. I will try to remember this on tests because I always second guess myself, change the answer and get it wrong:(

As my best friend always says, "Believe in what you can become." I learned today that that could be a nurse practitioner or a piano player, nobody knows better than you do!