God is Good.

Unfortunately, I've felt quite discouraged lately about nursing school. There are way more applicants this year than in previous years and I can't help but feel nervous about it. The competition is stiff, and the classes are hard. Sometimes I find myself wondering how I think I can actually get into to nursing school let alone be a nurse. I mean I have good grades, but not great grades. I mean there's always someone better.

The good news is, the feelings of discouragement are often replaced with confidence. My friends are great and we often encourage each other. Geez, I'm lucky:)

I'm not so good with handling stress, so I give it to God. I am SOO thankful that I know Him. On my first patho test I only got an 80% which is decent, but very disappointing because I felt like I knew my stuff and I walked away feeling awesome. I feel like this test didn't accurately show what I know. I always freeze on tests though, I over think everything and if I'm torn between two answers I ALWAYS guess the wrong answer.

Last Tuesday I had another patho test (every other week means no "down time"). I studied with lovely Marianne, the ladies at work, and read through my notes a zillion times, but I was still nervous. I mean I felt like I knew everything, but I felt that way last test and did average. I also walked out feeling unsure. But before this test, I said a prayer that morning. I asked him to help me through this test and help to express accurately what I really know. I asked for calmness throughout my exam and....IT WORKED. I got a flippin 90%. When I checked my grade online it said 85%, but that was obviously my class average. I went along the last few days thinking I got an 85, boy was I pleasantly surprised to receive that 90, my teacher even gave me a high five!

The only word to describe my emotions right now are elated and but humble. Listen up world, the power of prayer is real! I didn't grow up religious, so my knowledge is limited, but I KNOW this is true: if you can't handle what you are going through, God can. Pray to him for help, for forgiveness, to thank him, to tell him about your day, anything. He loves to hear from you and I swear you'll feel better after.

It feels nice to have a new sense of hope. Next to the last semester of nursing school, this semester is the most stressful. Not so much because of coursework, but mostly because of the uncertainty. The letter we receive on Thanksgiving will change our lives, whether it's a yes or no.

51 days until I'm officially in the program, folks! Ok, more like 51 days until the letter is in my hands, but same difference..:)